oh man, it's time to drag my butt on to my chair and update my blog. my blog has been dead for nearly six months. thanks to shermaine, reminded me to update and realised my blog actually existed. well, accounting is really not as easy as what ii think it is, can't really cope with it. can't even remember how many times have ii broken down, must be countless times. sometimes things don't really turn out as how you want it to be, be it in studies or friendship.
was gladful that my present malay classmates were quite friendly compared to last year's and ii know they actually loved me a lot. *oops* my male classmates were not bad either, especially Junhua, Bernard and Jiexiong. the lame jokes that they cracked were so funny that it will make you laugh till you wanna pee on your pants. oh ya, and not to forget Wenjin. he's such a 'handsome and nice' guy. and of course; him. he's the last person that ii ever want to mention and talk to.
things are not the same ever since last week or even before. my sisters should know who ii'm refering to. we used to fool around and crap a lot. but now, he doesn't even bother to talk to me anymore. ever since she appeared, he hasn't been talking to me at all. even when ii talks to him, he simply ignores me. makes me feels that ii'm such an irritating freak that irritates you all the time and that you hates me even though you deny. if ii am, just tell me straight in the face. as what you've said, we're all friends and we can talk together. we can still find a topic and talk about. not as if she'll get jealous when you talk to me or you can't talk to me in front of her presence. it's not as if we've had a quarrel and that you're angry with me or something, but nothing exactly happened. or rather can you tell me what happened? ii know ii do make fun of you, but that's just a joke. if ii have offended you in some words that ii've said, ii sincerely apologise for that coz ii don't really mean that. ii'm not angry, ii'm just upset seriously. just to let you know something, the fcuking bitch that ii said today was not her. don't jump to conclusions without knowing the facts. in any case if you happen to see this by chance, that's what ii feel and ii reckon it'll be hard for us to go back like what we used to be. anyway, no hard feelings.